me so numb

i just browsed my blog,, God,, i was so over my chie che pala,,
i was having different thoughts lately,,
we're on the rocks kasi,,
i don't honestly know how to deal with my emotions anymore..
There had been instances that i just want to give up..
I just want to lose the pain,,
But somethings telling me,, within me,,
that i should just hold on..
i don't really know what to feel actually,, its lke,,
i'm so numb..